It may seem I'm all over the place with explaining all this but there is so much I need to still share instead of getting overwhelmed from trying to explain it all at once I think it's better to piece it out to you as the memories arise one at a time.  Chronological order is not something that I'm able to get a handle on since so many factors coming at me from all directions has somewhat made it difficult to sort out without sounding like a crazy person.  So as the memories arise I'll write on them individually but I can't promise they will be in chronological order but I will try to convey them as best as I can.